[What does that word even mean, to them? To lost souls from a City where beloved ones could easily turn on each other for the right price? He's a monster of a man. She could've just been like that wide-eyed worker of the Syndicate who was left behind after the massacre, who had painted that lovely yet ruthless depiction of his eyes as he let her bleed out as thanks for giving him the password. His "mercy" is worse, he thinks.]
[And yet Malkuth still trusts.]
[Why?]
[Why doesn't she understand...?]
[He threads a scarred hand through his bangs, pensive once more.]
I didn't always have these eyes. [...] Only fellow Colors were able to.
[ because they knew they were just as strong. they had a fighting chance, unlike almost anyone else below them; a grade 1 might be able to glance, but they wouldn't be able to hold for long. malkuth wonders if her coworkers would be able to manage what she does too.
no, they certainly would. if for different reasons. ]
But I'm sure you've always had a mean look. When did you get them?
[ sorry if this is never said crystal i'm about to put you through a wringer ]
Of course it's important. You weren't always a Color.
[ he didn't always have that gaze he's named for. he was once just vergilius... an aspiring Fixer maybe, to change something or just survive the next day. it's things like these that she wants to discover, to learn about, to piece together as she sets a timeline of his life out in front of her.
before becoming the red gaze, and after that. what lay between? ]
Neither was the Red Mist. Kali was strong even before that, and she didn't talk too much to any of us -- but we knew we could trust her, because she believed in the same thing we did. We all walked the same path, even after... it started to fall apart.
[ splintered and crumbling, each person on their own stone trying their best to keep on. malkuth leans back in her seat, tilting her head up with a fond smile. ]
She was just a person, like anyone else. Of course it's important, Mr. Gaze. Even if the City doesn't think so.
[Kali, his predecessor. He's heard all the stories. The color of Red is a big pair of shoes to fill. It seems like they were similar, in some aspects.]
[A woman who turned her enemies into fine red mist...just like him, she had a sea of blood behind him. How did she deal with that? What did she think about it all.?]
[The fact that she was somehow around...in what, the Library?]
[Did that place attract Colors, or something?]
That's the point, though. The City churns us into what it wants us to be. It's a nice sentiment, to be a person.
[He closes his eyes momentarily, almost pained.]
But I don't know if...this old guide can be considered one anymore.
[ you'd be a wonderful human, she told a netzach who didn't believe her and who didn't believe in himself. but that's because she knows him. maybe it's because she knows gebura, who likes to mediate with her eyes closed and smoke, who seems to enjoy hod's company and is only riled by chesed's teasing, who is still always watching over them not just as their guardian, as their coworker, but as someone who finds importance in others...
... but colors aren't any different than normal people, and they're still people. her hand itches to touch him somehow, to ground him the way she had kaito, and she ends up just bumping their legs together instead. ]
I've already surprised you enough for one day, but I'm sure there's people who can't consider me a person anymore either. [ she remembers the way kaito had looked as she explained, matter-of-factly, the threat levels and what they meant for the employees who worked with them; she remembers the frustration ishmael showed at her light speech.
they still consider her a person, probably. but there's always the intial surprise or wariness. she knows she isn't normal by any stretch, for as normal as she looks and acts. ] The next stop is ours, by the way.
[He says, with little feeling. It feels misplaced. If he sat here and detailed all his sins, would she say the same? Probably not. He wouldn't, in her position.]
[One day, that bright gaze will turn away from his. They all do. Only children, perhaps, could've kept it up for longer, but he failed them. Roland did, but the City failed him, and the last time he saw him they didn't even look each other in the eyes. A mask was in the way.]
[The leg bumps into his - he shifts his hand over instinctively to grasp it, as if to push it away, but he doesn't. Realizing himself, he pulls it back to his own lap.]
That so? You're a mysterious one. But I wouldn't say that about you.
[She's strange, she's bizarre, but it feels like she's achieved something he never would. She delights in the aspects of humanity he's given up on.]
[He only nods at the last part. Almost there. Away from the warmth and closeness of this shuttle, then.]
[ misplaced as hers. she kicks her feet a bit, wondering if she listed out the numbers (never a name) of the employees who fell under her command, fell to her hand, if he'd still feel the same. maybe, if only because the body count of a Color will always be higher, but a normal Feather doesn't have one at all.
also at least wait until after dinner to touch her leg like that... wow. she's staring at it. what an odd gesture, incomplete as it was. ]
You can always ask me more questions if you'd like to dispell that mystery, you know.
And now I'm excited to see how far you will go, Mr. Gaze.
[ haha. holding open the doors for her, maybe... anyway they're gonna go to a pretty old-timey styled placed famed for their tempura, the aesthetic within more of a historic flair that the people of today would only know through pictures in a book and their implants.
it's evident that malkuth adores it, for anything else that might've transpired here, and they can get window seats. shrimp... vegetables... clams... a little spread for their delight. and beer of course, nothing goes better with fried food. ]
[It's not...a bad place, he thinks. He's been to a few restaurants here and there, as wide of a spectrum as possible from the dingy carts of the Backstreets to an occasional fancy schmancy celebration in the Nests. This seems right in the middle, and at least it doesn't insult his senses enough for him to complain about it.]
[He'll keep at the same bad sitting position at the table, glancing at all the food. He'll go for the beer first, of course.]
Just once! Izou took me, though it didn't really end too well.
[ it's fine. this isn't the same table as it was then, the man across from her is different and willing to let her peek in a bit. she hasn't fumbled her words yet. ]
I did like the way the place looked and tasted, though. It kind of reminds me of some of the guests we've had.
[ shrimp time... popping one into her mouth, mmm. ]
[He has no idea what Izou is about, so he can't make a judgement call as to whether or not he's some shining star of conversation or not. Looks like Malkuth doesn't rub everyone the right way, anyways.]
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[What does that word even mean, to them? To lost souls from a City where beloved ones could easily turn on each other for the right price? He's a monster of a man. She could've just been like that wide-eyed worker of the Syndicate who was left behind after the massacre, who had painted that lovely yet ruthless depiction of his eyes as he let her bleed out as thanks for giving him the password. His "mercy" is worse, he thinks.]
[And yet Malkuth still trusts.]
[Why?]
[Why doesn't she understand...?]
[He threads a scarred hand through his bangs, pensive once more.]
I didn't always have these eyes. [...] Only fellow Colors were able to.
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no, they certainly would. if for different reasons. ]
But I'm sure you've always had a mean look. When did you get them?
[ sorry if this is never said crystal i'm about to put you through a wringer ]
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[It might as well have been. His voice seems as cracked as old parchment of a book he doesn't like opening.]
But is it important? I am what I am now. Even this place feels fit to name me after my gaze.
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[ he didn't always have that gaze he's named for. he was once just vergilius... an aspiring Fixer maybe, to change something or just survive the next day. it's things like these that she wants to discover, to learn about, to piece together as she sets a timeline of his life out in front of her.
before becoming the red gaze, and after that. what lay between? ]
Neither was the Red Mist. Kali was strong even before that, and she didn't talk too much to any of us -- but we knew we could trust her, because she believed in the same thing we did. We all walked the same path, even after... it started to fall apart.
[ splintered and crumbling, each person on their own stone trying their best to keep on. malkuth leans back in her seat, tilting her head up with a fond smile. ]
She was just a person, like anyone else. Of course it's important, Mr. Gaze. Even if the City doesn't think so.
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[A woman who turned her enemies into fine red mist...just like him, she had a sea of blood behind him. How did she deal with that? What did she think about it all.?]
[The fact that she was somehow around...in what, the Library?]
[Did that place attract Colors, or something?]
That's the point, though. The City churns us into what it wants us to be. It's a nice sentiment, to be a person.
[He closes his eyes momentarily, almost pained.]
But I don't know if...this old guide can be considered one anymore.
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[ you'd be a wonderful human, she told a netzach who didn't believe her and who didn't believe in himself. but that's because she knows him. maybe it's because she knows gebura, who likes to mediate with her eyes closed and smoke, who seems to enjoy hod's company and is only riled by chesed's teasing, who is still always watching over them not just as their guardian, as their coworker, but as someone who finds importance in others...
... but colors aren't any different than normal people, and they're still people. her hand itches to touch him somehow, to ground him the way she had kaito, and she ends up just bumping their legs together instead. ]
I've already surprised you enough for one day, but I'm sure there's people who can't consider me a person anymore either. [ she remembers the way kaito had looked as she explained, matter-of-factly, the threat levels and what they meant for the employees who worked with them; she remembers the frustration ishmael showed at her light speech.
they still consider her a person, probably. but there's always the intial surprise or wariness. she knows she isn't normal by any stretch, for as normal as she looks and acts. ] The next stop is ours, by the way.
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[He says, with little feeling. It feels misplaced. If he sat here and detailed all his sins, would she say the same? Probably not. He wouldn't, in her position.]
[One day, that bright gaze will turn away from his. They all do. Only children, perhaps, could've kept it up for longer, but he failed them. Roland did, but the City failed him, and the last time he saw him they didn't even look each other in the eyes. A mask was in the way.]
[The leg bumps into his - he shifts his hand over instinctively to grasp it, as if to push it away, but he doesn't. Realizing himself, he pulls it back to his own lap.]
That so? You're a mysterious one. But I wouldn't say that about you.
[She's strange, she's bizarre, but it feels like she's achieved something he never would. She delights in the aspects of humanity he's given up on.]
[He only nods at the last part. Almost there. Away from the warmth and closeness of this shuttle, then.]
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[ misplaced as hers. she kicks her feet a bit, wondering if she listed out the numbers (never a name) of the employees who fell under her command, fell to her hand, if he'd still feel the same. maybe, if only because the body count of a Color will always be higher, but a normal Feather doesn't have one at all.
also at least wait until after dinner to touch her leg like that... wow. she's staring at it. what an odd gesture, incomplete as it was. ]
You can always ask me more questions if you'd like to dispell that mystery, you know.
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[He opens his mouth, closes it.]
[A wolf and a duck and a bright young lady, all in one.]
[He huffs, glancing away, feeling self-conscious for the touch, suddenly. Ugh. He really should put a stake into this tell-tale heart.]
Do you want me to ask if you've died before now, or wait for that question until dinner?
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...
right.... okay. ]
Prove you can be a gentleman and I'll answer that after dinner. It's not the kind of conversation you have before a drink or two.
[ beer isn't tasty enough for her to shoot it down. ]
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[See, not as much of an open book (ha) as anything, though apparently all he needs to do is act nice for the time being.]
["Nice".]
[He doesn't even remember the last time he went out of his way to being completely nice to anyone outside of Charon.]
Fine then. Though I'll still be mean as I want to be, hrm.
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[ no bite... as long as he treats her well, he can be as mean as he'd like. the train slows and she waits expectantly for him to stand first. ]
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Of course you don't.
[miss OPTIMISTIC]
[But he's moving, standing to exit the shuttle - he'll wait for her outside.]
Lead the way, Miss Weiss. Not like I know where we're going, here.
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A gentleman always offers his lady an arm, Mr. Gaze. This is basic etiquette.
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[looking at her like she's grown an extra head]
I'm not going this far for the gentleman act.
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[ but she'll lead on. touch her leg fucked around finding out. ]
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[WOW]
[WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!]
I'm just saying.
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[ haha. holding open the doors for her, maybe... anyway they're gonna go to a pretty old-timey styled placed famed for their tempura, the aesthetic within more of a historic flair that the people of today would only know through pictures in a book and their implants.
it's evident that malkuth adores it, for anything else that might've transpired here, and they can get window seats. shrimp... vegetables... clams... a little spread for their delight. and beer of course, nothing goes better with fried food. ]
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[GRUMBLE FUCKING GRUMBLE]
[It's not...a bad place, he thinks. He's been to a few restaurants here and there, as wide of a spectrum as possible from the dingy carts of the Backstreets to an occasional fancy schmancy celebration in the Nests. This seems right in the middle, and at least it doesn't insult his senses enough for him to complain about it.]
[He'll keep at the same bad sitting position at the table, glancing at all the food. He'll go for the beer first, of course.]
How often have you been here before?
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[ it's fine. this isn't the same table as it was then, the man across from her is different and willing to let her peek in a bit. she hasn't fumbled her words yet. ]
I did like the way the place looked and tasted, though. It kind of reminds me of some of the guests we've had.
[ shrimp time... popping one into her mouth, mmm. ]
... Do you like vegetables?
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[And guests...the Library as successful web, with its many flies.]
[Though it seems the flies are freeing themselves of those strings. It makes his chest feel heavy.]
[He'll reach for a clam himself. Mm.]
They're fine. You?
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[ she went too fast, maybe. malkuth's been replaying it in her mind over and over since that night. ]
I'm the same. They're okay, but I like meat more -- he pushed them off onto my plate like a child, I was just wondering if you'd do the same.
[ extra veggies for her....... it would be fine but. seafood better. ]
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[He has no idea what Izou is about, so he can't make a judgement call as to whether or not he's some shining star of conversation or not. Looks like Malkuth doesn't rub everyone the right way, anyways.]
[The next statement gets him to scoff.]
What am I, five? No. I'll eat them.
[He's not THAT rude.]
Meat or seafood?
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[ a sigh. ]
But not on the paycheck I've got right now.
[ maybe like. after kaiju she'll get paid well. she can have a thick ass steak all to herself... ]
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[SMALL LADY BIG STOMACH?]
Mm. Feels like the City, huh. Living day by day....at least we get paid.
[It may not be Color-level but then again he's never cared particularly about that.]
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malkuth vc this isn't the kind of conversation you have before a drink or two
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