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Vergilius ([personal profile] immortalpoet) wrote2024-03-07 12:18 am

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NAME Vergilius
CIVILIAN_NAME Red Gaze
TEAM Brimstone
HOUSING_NUMBER 11
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-30 04:56 am (UTC)(link)
You're not even gonna offer? I wouldn't say no.

[ ... mm. a thoughtful tilt of her head, but it's more like a body lean she catches herself on the stool next to her with so she doesn't fall off. ]

Though even if you don't have two left feet, I think I would right now -- not that I've danced before, but Kaito said he'd be my partner to learn one when the next class opened up... There's a lot more people on that dance floor than before, and I'm pretty sure I'd bump into someone.

[ there is not, for the record, that many more people on the dance floor than when they came in. ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-30 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
[ there's not, huh... that's kind of familiar. the road had been wobbly too, hadn't it. ]

Fighting and dancing are the same. That's why... I can't say.

[ wow. she's better at keeping this secret drunk than she is sober. anyway let her... gently slide off this stool... carefully. the vague understanding that it hit like a truck, and that she shouldn't have accepted another drink tonight, is very much there. but she doesn't want to dance with someone she doesn't know, and-- ]

If we're both not experienced, then I don't feel so bad.

[ in her effort to take a hand she's more got a palm on his knee, but it's fine, she's looking up at him with her reddened face and hopeful eyes. the dance doesn't seem so bad. it's nothing fancy footwork wise, just more for couples who want an excuse to keep their hands on each other, but it is yet another experience she'd like and can't imagine who else she'd bring to a bar.

besides, they're already here. what's the harm? ]


Just one?

[ he should say no. ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-30 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
Just one, [ she promises, and her hand finds his a little easier when her gaze escapes his.

just one, as she stumbles back harmlessly in her bid to pull him from his seat, to the dance floor reserved for people who aren't them, who've never killed someone or died trying. his hand is calloused in ways hers aren't, scarred, and malkuth wishes vaguely she had the time to map them out like she might the structure of a building, from foundation to the decor.

just as vaguely, she pauses and looks at his face; she remembers touching that too, now, the same lack of hesitation and buzzing mind. ]


... You're like the train rings.

[ fucking nonsense ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-30 02:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Really tall. I don't know if it'll be comfortable to reach...

[ but she'll try anyway, reaching up to mimic someone else as her hands lay around his neck and she leans against him. the world stops rocking, which is nice, and she closes her eyes. vergilius is solid, grounding, and malkuth breathes out a terribly sad sigh. ]

It's not...

[ her dance................ she's in mourning. ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-30 03:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[ oh, that's


better and worse, better for her hands and worse for her stomach as it tumbles. she shakes her head, light and still held down by the hands shackling her to him, him to her. they're weighty, but in a nice way. ]


It wasn't comfortable. It is now.

[ since he's been considerate and leaned a little, letting her fingers lock a bit more together as if sealing a dealing. physical contact, affection, is something she isn't used to, but it feels easier when her mind can't cling to it the way it might other times; it isn't something scary normally either, but it isn't something easy to give or receive.

she can tease and poke kaito like he does her, she can hug march and hold her hand like she's done before, but... for others, there's a certain boundary they need to cross themselves first. malkuth can't assume it's fine, or that they'd be welcome to it, though there's a difference in dragging someone along and--

this, something like this. her mind drifts to how she'll be dancing with kaito too once the class opens, hands touching in a different way, and if this has got her heart squeezing in a way it hasn't before-- that'll be worse, somehow, in a way she doesn't, can't think about. she remains in the moment, tilting her head up to look at vergilius and then away again just as fast. ]


I don't think I should drink around you.

[ but it's said with more of a laugh than anything serious. ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-31 01:06 am (UTC)(link)
I'll only complain if you leave me here.

[ which he won't, even if he has to sack her... she made him promise that. her eyes close and she rests her head on him too, exhaling softly. malkuth thinks she could fall asleep like this. vergilius wouldn't let her (would he?) but she could, right on her two feet and held so nicely. ]

... I'll try to write something so I don't forget this time. Just in case. What was that drink called? Ginger... something or other. I like it. I'm gonna get it next time, too. Just one. I'll write that down. Do you know about the importance of-- of dipping?

[ from one topic to another. ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-31 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
Latter. March says it's really, really important.

[ this isn't the type of dance you dip to, though, and realistically she knows that. on the other hand, there's support at her back and her own locked in place, loose as that lock is around his neck, and malkuth leans back a little with a giggle to see if he'll let her try. ]

There's a dramaticness to it, she says. I don't know what that means. I trust her though, even if she doesn't remember anything. Is that weird?
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-31 05:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ how is it?

her long hair feels like it's touching the ground, even if it very much isn't. his grip is careful and strong. gentle and secure. malkuth feels weightless, heart thudded in her chest, not for the first time wondering if she likes height or just the way people lean close. ]


... Lacking flair, [ she replies airily, ] but I think I like it.

[ there won't be a "think" next time she's dipped, but the ecstatic uncertainty of alcohol makes it hard to focus on anything except how it feels, rather than how she feels about it. it's good. nice. she wishes she could study his face and hands a little longer, staring up at him with interest plain in her eyes. she won't break this time. ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-31 01:50 pm (UTC)(link)
It-- makes the dance.

[ very important, fingers itching for something to do and finding the short hair at the back of his neck good enough. her thumb smoothes over it, a kind of new, nervous tumbling in her gut that bubbles into another laugh as she feels his hands through the fabric of her waist now, like they'd intend to keep her here as long as possible. clinging, almost, as she is to him by necessity and want.

a sigh at the tailend of it, smile never leaving her face. malkuth wonders if he could walk back like this if she stood on his feet. ]


It sure woke me up though. [ for now. ] I like your hands. Lucky the person that gets to have them all the time, they're trustworthy.
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-31 02:10 pm (UTC)(link)
So they're free.

[ but she's not surprised, even if there's more fixers who... are involved with each other is higher than anyone thinks. she wonders if those directors danced in the quiet of their office, their home, like this too. their books had been painful. she couldn't help but read them again and again, hod beside her, trying to understand the things they'd never felt.

not in this lifetime, barely scratching the surface of it in her first. elijah had been so young. what was she now? living the continuation of two lives, for herself, for that girl. ]


I knew a pair of Directors for a bit, [ they're still on her mind, ] who were getting married, I think it was. Before they were invited. She gained her own E.G.O. too, born from anger and love. It was lovely and scary, but it proved the impossible.

[ how terrifying, how strong, it can be. if only all the city had their own to keep them moving. ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-31 03:22 pm (UTC)(link)
She was hard to beat. It took a lot of us to suppress her, [ she mumbles, remembering the way the fight turns, the way she looked so alike to malkuth's own fiery form,

thinks of dying passion and the way phoenixes are said to rise from those ashes, again and again, ]
but that's what you'd expect from a Grade 1. I'd never wanna do it again.

[ it sucked. it wasn't even rewarding after. not that the fights really are, but... still. ]

I still think that it's worth to love though. In whatever way you can. I love my coworkers a lot, I... I miss them a lot too. [ even if part of it now is... her own fault... ] But I get it. I do. Lisa wasn't the same after Enoch. Ayin wasn't the same after Carmen either, but no one really was.

[ ... no one really was, her fingers pressing hard a moment against the nape of his neck before she sighs. where the high is high, the low is low; malkuth sinks against him more, sniffling with a soft, sorrowed whine. ]

No one was... We shattered... Even if we're closer now, it's painful to remember...
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-31 11:27 pm (UTC)(link)
... Because love is what saves people. It hurts when you lose it, or when you never had it returned in the first place, [ never had the chance for it to be returned, ] but so many people are saved just because someone else loved them.

[ if xiao had succeeded, then she would have saved lowell's book. maybe he would have popped right out, once escaping the library. she wishes she knew. ]

The world is changed when someone loves. I think it's a wonderful, powerful thing, and that's why the City doesn't like it. It isn't easy to control.

[ ... unpredictable and impossibly strong, but steadfast and faithful... ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-04-01 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
[ how many songs have played? one, three? she hums in agreement, a hand dropping to wipe at her face as if thinking there's tears (there are, he's a little wet on front) and then the other joins it at her side. ]

Sorry. Yeah. I'm tired anyway. Thanks for dancing with me.

[ not his fault. she's just finally feeling the rush drain from her body, though she still rests against him. ]

Wanna stay someplace local? I don't know if I'll make the walk back to the base, and I'd feel bad making you carry me.