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Vergilius ([personal profile] immortalpoet) wrote2024-03-07 12:18 am

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NAME Vergilius
CIVILIAN_NAME Red Gaze
TEAM Brimstone
HOUSING_NUMBER 11
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-31 02:10 pm (UTC)(link)
So they're free.

[ but she's not surprised, even if there's more fixers who... are involved with each other is higher than anyone thinks. she wonders if those directors danced in the quiet of their office, their home, like this too. their books had been painful. she couldn't help but read them again and again, hod beside her, trying to understand the things they'd never felt.

not in this lifetime, barely scratching the surface of it in her first. elijah had been so young. what was she now? living the continuation of two lives, for herself, for that girl. ]


I knew a pair of Directors for a bit, [ they're still on her mind, ] who were getting married, I think it was. Before they were invited. She gained her own E.G.O. too, born from anger and love. It was lovely and scary, but it proved the impossible.

[ how terrifying, how strong, it can be. if only all the city had their own to keep them moving. ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-31 03:22 pm (UTC)(link)
She was hard to beat. It took a lot of us to suppress her, [ she mumbles, remembering the way the fight turns, the way she looked so alike to malkuth's own fiery form,

thinks of dying passion and the way phoenixes are said to rise from those ashes, again and again, ]
but that's what you'd expect from a Grade 1. I'd never wanna do it again.

[ it sucked. it wasn't even rewarding after. not that the fights really are, but... still. ]

I still think that it's worth to love though. In whatever way you can. I love my coworkers a lot, I... I miss them a lot too. [ even if part of it now is... her own fault... ] But I get it. I do. Lisa wasn't the same after Enoch. Ayin wasn't the same after Carmen either, but no one really was.

[ ... no one really was, her fingers pressing hard a moment against the nape of his neck before she sighs. where the high is high, the low is low; malkuth sinks against him more, sniffling with a soft, sorrowed whine. ]

No one was... We shattered... Even if we're closer now, it's painful to remember...
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-03-31 11:27 pm (UTC)(link)
... Because love is what saves people. It hurts when you lose it, or when you never had it returned in the first place, [ never had the chance for it to be returned, ] but so many people are saved just because someone else loved them.

[ if xiao had succeeded, then she would have saved lowell's book. maybe he would have popped right out, once escaping the library. she wishes she knew. ]

The world is changed when someone loves. I think it's a wonderful, powerful thing, and that's why the City doesn't like it. It isn't easy to control.

[ ... unpredictable and impossibly strong, but steadfast and faithful... ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-04-01 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
[ how many songs have played? one, three? she hums in agreement, a hand dropping to wipe at her face as if thinking there's tears (there are, he's a little wet on front) and then the other joins it at her side. ]

Sorry. Yeah. I'm tired anyway. Thanks for dancing with me.

[ not his fault. she's just finally feeling the rush drain from her body, though she still rests against him. ]

Wanna stay someplace local? I don't know if I'll make the walk back to the base, and I'd feel bad making you carry me.