[A lazy sort of accusation, if it even is one. He almost states it as casual fact, watching the contortion of the other's face with his hand so firmly on his cock. It still is sticky from before, thighs coated in his previous release. He aims to add more to that, though he thinks his alone will be enough to stain him.]
[That being said, he twists his wrist as to hold both of them in the same grip. He is still sensitive himself, hissing as they both touch.]
You want what can hurt you.
[There's a confident stare at the way spider fingers drift over his thighs, daring them to move. To dig in. To hurt.]
[ He says the word like they both aren't, or maybe like they both are. He grips both of them in his grip, and he hisses out another shuddering breath, it hurts, it doesn't hurt. It's everything in between, and he both wants to struggle out of his grip and buck into his hands over and over again to chase more of that pain, more of the pleasure that comes with it.
It hurts. It's good. His lips peel back — into a sharp smile. ]
Is that what you think I want?
[ He meets his gaze, watches him stare down at him, and his fingers dig in. Gripping into him, into solid muscle and scars. One of which he'd made himself. He can't break skin like this, but it doesn't seem to matter. He just wants to press in, as if he can dip his fingers into his muscle and flesh and wind his way deeper into him.
Make it so neither one of them can pull away.
Can they? They can't now. ]
I've never wanted anything but. [ He uses the leverage of his hands digging into his thighs to pull himself up, lean forward. Look him in the eye, all lean sinew and bone, his lips curled into the slightest of sharp, knowing smiles. ]
Don't you? [ His fingers tighten into his thighs. ] You wouldn't want me if I couldn't take all of you, would you?
[ Silco may be a mascochist, may enjoy the pain, and hurting; but doesn't he? Doesn't this go both ways? They started out with violence, and blood, and biting each other until they were draining each other dry. It started with stabbings and violence, both external and toward each other. It's more than that now — he has him, doesn't he? — but they are still men masquerading as monsters.
It's always there, that capacity for violence. That's what draws him in, even if it hurts, even when it doesn't. ]
[The capacity for violence. It's part and parcel of the City. You either kill or be killed. He has wrought too much blood with his hands. And here, underneath him, is a man who practically begs for more.]
[If Silco is a masochist, does this mean he's the opposite? Something twinges in his chest at that. It is painful, that deep wound constantly bleeding in his core. He hated the City for its constabt suffering.]
[Is it suffering, when he causes pain to a horrible man like this? Is it suffering when he enjoys it? When punishment is something to cherish?]
[Silco pushes himself forward, grip tightening over his thighs. It makes him murmur, eyes flickering even as he doesn't avert his gaze. Vergilius tilts his head, as if considering.]
...No. I wouldn't.
[Perhaps it is surprising, for a monster to lean forward to kiss the other so lightly. Softly.]
And that means. All of me.
[The good, the bad, the ugly, and the softer man underneath.]
Maybe that should scare him, with his capacity for violence, with the way anger flickers in his eyes when Silco caught them sometimes, with the way he can reach out and threaten to crush his windpipe, or pull his spine out without breaking a sweat. He knew he could. He knows he can, they aren't empty threats. That danger always makes something in his chest flutter, the promise of potential all it takes to draw his attention.
They're both from violent places. Had violence done to them. Had learned to adapt in the only way they could, by becoming violent in turn. He knows he holds it too, that violence in him. Vergilius though, has proven he can respond in kind. Time, after time, after time.
He wouldn't want him without it, but he also...
He leans down, and brushes lips against his.
It's softer than he expected.
He doesn't mind the good or the bad, or even the ugly. Those are what drew him in, after all. It's the soft man that he sees peeking out that surprises him every time. Not that he has it, oh no, Vergilius has that spot in him, Silco sees it peeking out, like in the way he speaks about those children he cares for, even as he lies to them. No, he's surprised when it's turned on him. He shows it to him. Let's him see it, and it's...
A vulnerability. A weakness. He exposes it to him, and Silco doesn't quite want to pull it to pieces. Does that make him weak in turn? ]
All of you... [ He murmurs, against his lips. He lets go of one of his thighs to reach up, and wind his thin fingers behind his head, brushing at his hair there. His thumb runs against the fine hairs, softer than the other hand that remains pressing into taut muscle. ]
I'll take it. [ Would he do the same in kind? Take everything that he was? Even down to the parts that he knew would — had — made him so easy to discard? ]
[Those slender fingers slide through his dark gray hair, cuppng the back of his scalp. It would make him stutter if he spoke, but he lets the flush of blood into his ears and neck answer how pleased he feels. As if he is a lonesome cat seeking the touch of a hand.]
[His grip over both of them, in turn, becomes lighter but still firm. He starts to pump the both of them languidly, almost lazily, like he had to remember that this was a sexual affair. Silco will take it? All of him?]
[It sounds almost too good to be true. Even Silco has his preferences. Surely there is something he would balk at, and already has, before.]
You stabbed me...before. Mm. Was that...acceptance?
[He seeks out his lips again, captures them to suck over the lower lip like savoring a meal. Vergilius wants to have someone take all of him.]
[ His heart pounds heavily in his chest, his fingers move against him, and he feels that heat pool in his belly, like something he can hardly believe is awake, like Vergilius takes that part of his brain and lights it on fire every time they're in the same room alone. Sometimes when they're not. His hips shift, fucking into his hand, with its lazy motion.
They both knew what this was, right? Something both purely sexual, and... then there was the other thing. The Understanding they both sought. The promise they'd made while fighting in a hallway. They were two things, they weren't the same thing — but they were at the same time. He understood the man better, with the way he leaned into his fingers, seeking his touch. The way his neck grows warm under his thin fingers. The way he can't help but scrape his fingernails through the short hairs at the back of his neck. He wants to find all the little ways he reacts. He wants to understand him. All of him. ]
The first time was self-defense. [ He murmurs against his lips. Vergilius will feel the curl of his lips, his fingers seek the spot on his thigh, as if that's his to touch. His mark left on him. ] The second was...
[ A shuddering breath against his lips. It was a test, in a way. A glancing blow from a monster to another.
He wants to take all of him — he wants someone to take all of him, too. The ugly, the things that had driven everyone away when they get too close. ]
The second was... [ A beat, a shuddering sigh against his lips. ] Making sure you would.
I'm not sure if it was mostly self defense, you know.
[It is sexual. So many months ago opened up the door - box of things to get excited about. A supple thin waist, slender little legs, little gasps from a hoarse throat. Silco shifts into his hand, and he is proud of the way they both start to harden again in tandem. Silco wasn't exactly some magazine model, but who cares? The City never put so much emphasis on looks, after all. He himself was not someone he would consider a beauty. It's about the way they make each other feel. A thrill under the skin.]
[And then there was.. something else. A fearful thing to look at. The depths of emotion that wanted to be shallow but were anything but. Silco sighs against his lips that the second time was to see if he would accept him. Has he? Would he? Is that proof?]
Ahh.
[A edged little groan at the touch to his thigh - his cock twitches, as if in reply. He's sighing out his words into the other's mouth.]
[ He was here, despite it all, wasn't he? He could have killed him, or at the very least, he could have gone anywhere else. He'd found Silco after all was said and done, hadn't he? Yes, he'd been angry, but he was always angry. At everything. Silco could see the shape of it even as he still ached to cultivate it and let it grow.
He'd indulged in his anger, hadn't he? In a way that left Silco breathless and aching and far too sensitive, but still he found himself growing under his attentions, stiff already even though he could barely stand the touch — it aches, it's perfect, it hurts and it feels good — and maybe it's because they promised something in that van, dancing around each other and saying all those words that seemed to cordon off what they weren't saying. Like they were trapping it, making the shape of it, without actually saying it.
His mouth opens, and a soft groan echoes his against his lips.
How does he even explain it? That it wouldn't be the first time, all that he expects. Is used to. He hoped he wouldn't, but he knew — it was better if he knew now, if he would find a way to disentangle the two of them. If he hurt — and he knew he would, he always does — would that turn him away? Have him find some way to extricate the two of them, before he hurt him again.
His thumb glanced his thigh, rubbing against it. That old wound, scarred now. Almost... gentle. He had him. He might not think himself a beauty, but Silco... found the shape of him pleasing — every scarred surface, the spaces where he wasn't — and his eyes that he so desperately coveted to look at. ]
Hm. [ His body shudders under his, and he brushes chipped teeth against his lips, biting him there, not gentle, but not like he was trying to tear him limb from limb. ]
We are not soft men, Vergilius. [ He says against his lips. ] I need you to look at me and understand all of me. The parts that cut. The parts that are not palatable.
[ The ones that would make others leave. Even the strongest people he knew. He had to know. He still doesn't know, tentatively looking at this thing from the side, trying not to look at it. He can't bear looking at it, that sick paranoia that it would be gone, if he did. ]
[He murmurs. Of course, he is the worst of all. Silco must be a saint compared to him, in the long run. They both are going to hell. He's deeper. And so, should he judge the man for his vices? Find displeasure in his choices? He almost still feels the man's teeth against his throat again all those months ago, changing him into something beyond humanity.]
[His hand might still be grasping them, but he's starting to rock a little, a little waver of the hips back and forth as to build up the uncomfortable friction. They are not soft men. They deserve to suffer. They deserve to dash onto each other like sharp rocks at low tide.]
Hah. [A gasp against Silco's lips - Vergilius feels his skin caked with a thin layer of sweat. His cock throbs, aching, almost a little desperate.] I agreed...to that. The understanding. So I won't back down now. Will you?
[ The Understanding — he agreed to it. How funny, that this Understanding is the name for something that was maybe more than just understanding. It's more like iron wrapping around each other, digging in, understanding, but also whatever this was, their bodies hot and sweaty, Vergilius on top of him and thrusting, and then there's —
He breathed out a soft huff against him. It's good, it's terrible, it's just like they are, pleasure and pain, hurting while they sought to eke out whatever pleasure they could from one another. Is this anything but what they are? His legs spread, his own hips lift to meet his, as if he can do nothing but meet him in this. They both want it, don't they? All of it. ]
Do I look like I'm backing down?
[ He asks, his lips move against his, a sharp scrape of his teeth, his fingers dig in. Silco was a possessive, jealous little creature at his core. Digging in, his fingers try to hold his thighs, as if...
As if he's still afraid he'll slip free of his grasp.
He shuddered under him, an open mouthed hitch of his breath. ]
Show it to me, Vergilius. Show me all of you, then.
[All of him. Will they tear out their hearts, offer them up to each other, next? Can they go any deeper? He's told Silco things he hasn't told a single human soul.]
[And he, the fool, still feels like he could trust him with that. Must be the Understanding. That's what you do, to Understand. Put yourself in each other's hands and squeeze until you bleed.]
[He kisses like a dull knife, rough and needy. He moves, now, gathering the other's slender legs in the crook of his arms so that he can properly slot against him. Not into him, but with his weight forward, he now frots against him, the thrust of his hips a rough wave to endure.]
[ Was that what they were still doing? Seeking understanding? They kept asking those questions — they kept sharing those secrets, and Silco covets and hoards them like they are precious gems. He wants Vergilius to do it too, keep the things he tells him close and secret. They're wringing each other out, squeezing to see what blood comes out, like drawing blood from a stone.
But it's precious, isn't it? What little they can squeeze out from one another, because it's rare. From the both of them. He'd not shared some of his either, even from those who deserved to know. Understanding was a word that meant something to them, but maybe they were changing the definition in real time, finding a meaning from it that meant more than just this.
Or maybe it was always going to be more. ]
Ah — [ He breathes against his lips, his legs folded awkwardly as he presses down on him, their bodies are intertwined, the weight of him bearing down is punishing — it feels perfect. ] Consider me educated —
[ He breathes against him, his hips surge up to frot against him in return, he can do nothing but, because how could he not chase this when it feels so right? ]
[Was he doomed from the beginning, he wonders? When he saved him in that alleyway months upon months ago, was this the beginning of the end?]
[It's wrong. It's right. He never found a more perfect hell to drown so pleasantly into. Silco has learned his lesson. He has put him in his place. And he will do so again, and again, and again-]
[His groan almost comes out as a choked sound as he suddenly feels the snap of his arousal hitting his peak. Vergilius shudders head to toe, and he cums between them. It coats them both, strands of it smeared and hot on their skin as he thrusts through it.]
Hagh. Hah. Sil-
[He can't even say his name. He simply moves as solidly as a machine, panting into the other's lips. As if to deliver his own reaction like he put it on a silver platter for Silco to swallow down.]
[ It shouldn't be overwhelming, but it is. He's already come once, but maybe the time away was too much for them, a libido kicked into gear from this man, and this man alone. Does Vergilius knows what he's done to him, drawn him in like this? Making him want this, to accept this, as he puts him into his "place", whatever place it was.
It goes both ways, after all. This little hell they've crafted together. He wants him to. Keep trying to put him in his place, while he draws that little beast out, the little sharp bits he can see the shape of, like he's dodging them, while he's letting them pin him down. He's still thrusting —
Silco can feel it too, that pleasant burn that cuts through overstimulation, the heat between them, the everything, it hits him too, like a chaser, liquid fire down his back and making his eyes roll back in his head. He gets to look at him this time.
He thinks he prefers that, swallowing his moans, devouring them as he spills between them. ]
Ah, yes —
[ He swallows his name from his lips, his fingers find purchase, as if he can hold him here, to ride it all out. Maybe so he'll remain for a little longer. ]
[It's like a fire burning inside. Something hot and beautiful and deadly. Even as the height of physical ecstasy calms, he can't help but moan his adoration as his hips stagger and thrust. He likes seeing Silco when he reaches his peak. The loss of control is so rare.]
[Nobody else gets to have this Silco in their hands. Messy and stained and with hair tussled and skin slick with sweat.]
[He really is the most gorgeous thorn in his side. He hates him for it, in a way. The pain he has caused, time and time again...]
[Well, he can punish him in so many ways. Just like this. Vergilius shifts, only to kiss him. Its a little desperate, one hand threading through the man's hair to cup over the nape of his neck.]
...It's been too long.
[He can't help but murmur. It really has. From the van to nights without a single thing to a knife in his side. And then back here.]
[He wants to bask in it a little while longer, even as his wound aches. To remind him.]
[ Maybe he should listen to himself, but Silco's breathing is rough against his lips, coming down from the high of their bodies pressed against one another. Harsher, a show of vulnerability, in its own way. He breathes out, his lips against his, his fingers still dance against his shoulders, and he doesn't dare dig in anymore. He made his point, he learned his lesson.
Maybe they understood each other a little better. Hard won from fire and pain and steel. Maybe they had more answers, but at the very least, they had an agreement, didn't they? Limits and guardrails, things that they wouldn't do. His throat still aches, a touch, breathing hard scrapes sensitive skin, but he still breathes against his lips. Enjoys it. He feels that warm, pleasant haze take over. He doesn't even mind the mess between them, still warm from their bodies pressed together.
He darts a hand up, to brush against the scar on his face. ]
I think you must have done something to me. [ He says, a curl of his lips. ] I've never counted the days since before. You're just lucky I've been patient.
[ As if he would jump him in public, but oh, he had been sorely tempted. It had been far too long. ]
Done something to me? I should be making that accusation at you.
[He repeats, almost a little incredulous. As if he had the power for such things. As if anyone would look at this and want more. It wasn't as if anyone was eager for it. (And if they were, he would always turn them down. He was the best at self-sabotage, for his own good.)]
[Vergilius's eyelids flutter at the touch to his face. He leans into it. He craves it. Silco always gives it to him. He might be smarting from his wound, but a touch like this could melt the world away.]
Maybe next time, not so lucky. Mm. Would you mind? [And something a little mischievious in his usually gloomy eyes, twinkling in the red light. He bends down to press a kiss to the sharp bend of the man's nose.] I should have dragged you into an alleyway.
[ Wasn't Silco? With the way he looks at him like a greedy little bird, that pitch eye drinks all the lines of him in. Every time his muscles ripple under his skin, every time he caught his eyes from across the room. As if he didn't look at him and think exactly that; that he wanted more. Silco knows he is lean, hunched over, withered — he still covets him, and strangely, he lets him.
He breathes out, a soft half-chuckle. Something dark and a little bit pleased. ]
Maybe you should...
[ His fingers trail along the line of his jaw, to his ears, to brush at the fine hairs at the back of his neck. ]
We could sneak away... Would anyone even miss us? For just a little while.
[ He wasn't exactly making waves against the kaiju, and besides. He'd need his bodyguard with him, if he went off on his own. Right.
He tipped his head, to brush his lips against his jaw, and to breathe into his ear. ] Next time, maybe you should do it. Keep me occupied.
[He thinks Silco could sculpt him by now, from how much he has touched him. He must have memorized every angle, every muscle. Vergilius sighs into the light brushes of skin. His hands also meet the man's body, only to encircle him to pull him in.]
[They could sneak away. They could try to kill each other. They could spend a date together.]
[The sky is the limit.]
Keep you occupied...are you adding to my responsibilities? Maybe I should charge you more.
[A light nibble to rhe man's ear, as a reply.]
But maybe I should make it a surprise. One day I will come and you will be so unprepared. I'll whisk you away. You won't know what's coming.
[ He would take the options, any of them, his fingers sought the spaces that were so familiar, after all. He knew where his touch made him shiver, and where he twitched. If Vergilius tried to kill him, he would give as good as he gave — he preferred this, though. The little deaths. The death would come — they all tried in the end, didn't they? Where would his line be?
He'd played with it, tried to tease it out, along with the monster. Tried to pull that line out, to see where it was, where Vergilius would find the end of his rope and decide to just let go. Toss him away like every other time. It had to, the alternative was...
He teases him. Silco shivers, letting him pull him close.
How foolish of him. His fingers scrape against his back, teasing in turn. ]
Well, we would have to negotiate that contract, if you wanted to charge more...
[ He murmured, low. A tease in turn.
He sighed, his teeth at his ear does something odd. A nauseating little flip, like he skipped a beat. His fingers tighten. ]
A surprise? [ He asks. He laughs softly. A little teasing. ] I suppose it's fair play...
[ He'd jumped him twice now, after all. Caught him by surprise. ]
If you manage to catch me unprepared... [ A nip at his jawline, chipped teeth there leaving the slightest of indents. ] Then I'll let you have your way with me.
[ As if he wouldn't anyway. ] Whatever you want. A boon, perhaps.
[ A challenge, a game. What was Silco, without his games? ]
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[A lazy sort of accusation, if it even is one. He almost states it as casual fact, watching the contortion of the other's face with his hand so firmly on his cock. It still is sticky from before, thighs coated in his previous release. He aims to add more to that, though he thinks his alone will be enough to stain him.]
[That being said, he twists his wrist as to hold both of them in the same grip. He is still sensitive himself, hissing as they both touch.]
You want what can hurt you.
[There's a confident stare at the way spider fingers drift over his thighs, daring them to move. To dig in. To hurt.]
[Maybe be wants to be harmed, too.]
Isn't that right....?
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It hurts. It's good. His lips peel back — into a sharp smile. ]
Is that what you think I want?
[ He meets his gaze, watches him stare down at him, and his fingers dig in. Gripping into him, into solid muscle and scars. One of which he'd made himself. He can't break skin like this, but it doesn't seem to matter. He just wants to press in, as if he can dip his fingers into his muscle and flesh and wind his way deeper into him.
Make it so neither one of them can pull away.
Can they? They can't now. ]
I've never wanted anything but. [ He uses the leverage of his hands digging into his thighs to pull himself up, lean forward. Look him in the eye, all lean sinew and bone, his lips curled into the slightest of sharp, knowing smiles. ]
Don't you? [ His fingers tighten into his thighs. ] You wouldn't want me if I couldn't take all of you, would you?
[ Silco may be a mascochist, may enjoy the pain, and hurting; but doesn't he? Doesn't this go both ways? They started out with violence, and blood, and biting each other until they were draining each other dry. It started with stabbings and violence, both external and toward each other. It's more than that now — he has him, doesn't he? — but they are still men masquerading as monsters.
It's always there, that capacity for violence. That's what draws him in, even if it hurts, even when it doesn't. ]
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[If Silco is a masochist, does this mean he's the opposite? Something twinges in his chest at that. It is painful, that deep wound constantly bleeding in his core. He hated the City for its constabt suffering.]
[Is it suffering, when he causes pain to a horrible man like this? Is it suffering when he enjoys it? When punishment is something to cherish?]
[Silco pushes himself forward, grip tightening over his thighs. It makes him murmur, eyes flickering even as he doesn't avert his gaze. Vergilius tilts his head, as if considering.]
...No. I wouldn't.
[Perhaps it is surprising, for a monster to lean forward to kiss the other so lightly. Softly.]
And that means. All of me.
[The good, the bad, the ugly, and the softer man underneath.]
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Maybe that should scare him, with his capacity for violence, with the way anger flickers in his eyes when Silco caught them sometimes, with the way he can reach out and threaten to crush his windpipe, or pull his spine out without breaking a sweat. He knew he could. He knows he can, they aren't empty threats. That danger always makes something in his chest flutter, the promise of potential all it takes to draw his attention.
They're both from violent places. Had violence done to them. Had learned to adapt in the only way they could, by becoming violent in turn. He knows he holds it too, that violence in him. Vergilius though, has proven he can respond in kind. Time, after time, after time.
He wouldn't want him without it, but he also...
He leans down, and brushes lips against his.
It's softer than he expected.
He doesn't mind the good or the bad, or even the ugly. Those are what drew him in, after all. It's the soft man that he sees peeking out that surprises him every time. Not that he has it, oh no, Vergilius has that spot in him, Silco sees it peeking out, like in the way he speaks about those children he cares for, even as he lies to them. No, he's surprised when it's turned on him. He shows it to him. Let's him see it, and it's...
A vulnerability. A weakness. He exposes it to him, and Silco doesn't quite want to pull it to pieces. Does that make him weak in turn? ]
All of you... [ He murmurs, against his lips. He lets go of one of his thighs to reach up, and wind his thin fingers behind his head, brushing at his hair there. His thumb runs against the fine hairs, softer than the other hand that remains pressing into taut muscle. ]
I'll take it. [ Would he do the same in kind? Take everything that he was? Even down to the parts that he knew would — had — made him so easy to discard? ]
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[His grip over both of them, in turn, becomes lighter but still firm. He starts to pump the both of them languidly, almost lazily, like he had to remember that this was a sexual affair. Silco will take it? All of him?]
[It sounds almost too good to be true. Even Silco has his preferences. Surely there is something he would balk at, and already has, before.]
You stabbed me...before. Mm. Was that...acceptance?
[He seeks out his lips again, captures them to suck over the lower lip like savoring a meal. Vergilius wants to have someone take all of him.]
[Does Silco want that, too?]
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They both knew what this was, right? Something both purely sexual, and... then there was the other thing. The Understanding they both sought. The promise they'd made while fighting in a hallway. They were two things, they weren't the same thing — but they were at the same time. He understood the man better, with the way he leaned into his fingers, seeking his touch. The way his neck grows warm under his thin fingers. The way he can't help but scrape his fingernails through the short hairs at the back of his neck. He wants to find all the little ways he reacts. He wants to understand him. All of him. ]
The first time was self-defense. [ He murmurs against his lips. Vergilius will feel the curl of his lips, his fingers seek the spot on his thigh, as if that's his to touch. His mark left on him. ] The second was...
[ A shuddering breath against his lips. It was a test, in a way. A glancing blow from a monster to another.
He wants to take all of him — he wants someone to take all of him, too. The ugly, the things that had driven everyone away when they get too close. ]
The second was... [ A beat, a shuddering sigh against his lips. ] Making sure you would.
[ accept him ]
HIT POST TOO EARLY WAGH
[It is sexual. So many months ago opened up the door - box of things to get excited about. A supple thin waist, slender little legs, little gasps from a hoarse throat. Silco shifts into his hand, and he is proud of the way they both start to harden again in tandem. Silco wasn't exactly some magazine model, but who cares? The City never put so much emphasis on looks, after all. He himself was not someone he would consider a beauty. It's about the way they make each other feel. A thrill under the skin.]
[And then there was.. something else. A fearful thing to look at. The depths of emotion that wanted to be shallow but were anything but. Silco sighs against his lips that the second time was to see if he would accept him. Has he? Would he? Is that proof?]
Ahh.
[A edged little groan at the touch to his thigh - his cock twitches, as if in reply. He's sighing out his words into the other's mouth.]
You don't...need to stab me to get that.
[...Acceptance. Understanding.]
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He'd indulged in his anger, hadn't he? In a way that left Silco breathless and aching and far too sensitive, but still he found himself growing under his attentions, stiff already even though he could barely stand the touch — it aches, it's perfect, it hurts and it feels good — and maybe it's because they promised something in that van, dancing around each other and saying all those words that seemed to cordon off what they weren't saying. Like they were trapping it, making the shape of it, without actually saying it.
His mouth opens, and a soft groan echoes his against his lips.
How does he even explain it? That it wouldn't be the first time, all that he expects. Is used to. He hoped he wouldn't, but he knew — it was better if he knew now, if he would find a way to disentangle the two of them. If he hurt — and he knew he would, he always does — would that turn him away? Have him find some way to extricate the two of them, before he hurt him again.
His thumb glanced his thigh, rubbing against it. That old wound, scarred now. Almost... gentle. He had him. He might not think himself a beauty, but Silco... found the shape of him pleasing — every scarred surface, the spaces where he wasn't — and his eyes that he so desperately coveted to look at. ]
Hm. [ His body shudders under his, and he brushes chipped teeth against his lips, biting him there, not gentle, but not like he was trying to tear him limb from limb. ]
We are not soft men, Vergilius. [ He says against his lips. ] I need you to look at me and understand all of me. The parts that cut. The parts that are not palatable.
[ The ones that would make others leave. Even the strongest people he knew. He had to know. He still doesn't know, tentatively looking at this thing from the side, trying not to look at it. He can't bear looking at it, that sick paranoia that it would be gone, if he did. ]
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The good and the bad.
[He murmurs. Of course, he is the worst of all. Silco must be a saint compared to him, in the long run. They both are going to hell. He's deeper. And so, should he judge the man for his vices? Find displeasure in his choices? He almost still feels the man's teeth against his throat again all those months ago, changing him into something beyond humanity.]
[His hand might still be grasping them, but he's starting to rock a little, a little waver of the hips back and forth as to build up the uncomfortable friction. They are not soft men. They deserve to suffer. They deserve to dash onto each other like sharp rocks at low tide.]
Hah. [A gasp against Silco's lips - Vergilius feels his skin caked with a thin layer of sweat. His cock throbs, aching, almost a little desperate.] I agreed...to that. The understanding. So I won't back down now. Will you?
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He breathed out a soft huff against him. It's good, it's terrible, it's just like they are, pleasure and pain, hurting while they sought to eke out whatever pleasure they could from one another. Is this anything but what they are? His legs spread, his own hips lift to meet his, as if he can do nothing but meet him in this. They both want it, don't they? All of it. ]
Do I look like I'm backing down?
[ He asks, his lips move against his, a sharp scrape of his teeth, his fingers dig in. Silco was a possessive, jealous little creature at his core. Digging in, his fingers try to hold his thighs, as if...
As if he's still afraid he'll slip free of his grasp.
He shuddered under him, an open mouthed hitch of his breath. ]
Show it to me, Vergilius. Show me all of you, then.
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[And he, the fool, still feels like he could trust him with that. Must be the Understanding. That's what you do, to Understand. Put yourself in each other's hands and squeeze until you bleed.]
[He kisses like a dull knife, rough and needy. He moves, now, gathering the other's slender legs in the crook of his arms so that he can properly slot against him. Not into him, but with his weight forward, he now frots against him, the thrust of his hips a rough wave to endure.]
Hah. Ah. I hope you learned...your lesson.
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But it's precious, isn't it? What little they can squeeze out from one another, because it's rare. From the both of them. He'd not shared some of his either, even from those who deserved to know. Understanding was a word that meant something to them, but maybe they were changing the definition in real time, finding a meaning from it that meant more than just this.
Or maybe it was always going to be more. ]
Ah — [ He breathes against his lips, his legs folded awkwardly as he presses down on him, their bodies are intertwined, the weight of him bearing down is punishing — it feels perfect. ] Consider me educated —
[ He breathes against him, his hips surge up to frot against him in return, he can do nothing but, because how could he not chase this when it feels so right? ]
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[It's wrong. It's right. He never found a more perfect hell to drown so pleasantly into. Silco has learned his lesson. He has put him in his place. And he will do so again, and again, and again-]
[His groan almost comes out as a choked sound as he suddenly feels the snap of his arousal hitting his peak. Vergilius shudders head to toe, and he cums between them. It coats them both, strands of it smeared and hot on their skin as he thrusts through it.]
Hagh. Hah. Sil-
[He can't even say his name. He simply moves as solidly as a machine, panting into the other's lips. As if to deliver his own reaction like he put it on a silver platter for Silco to swallow down.]
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It goes both ways, after all. This little hell they've crafted together. He wants him to. Keep trying to put him in his place, while he draws that little beast out, the little sharp bits he can see the shape of, like he's dodging them, while he's letting them pin him down. He's still thrusting —
Silco can feel it too, that pleasant burn that cuts through overstimulation, the heat between them, the everything, it hits him too, like a chaser, liquid fire down his back and making his eyes roll back in his head. He gets to look at him this time.
He thinks he prefers that, swallowing his moans, devouring them as he spills between them. ]
Ah, yes —
[ He swallows his name from his lips, his fingers find purchase, as if he can hold him here, to ride it all out. Maybe so he'll remain for a little longer. ]
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[Nobody else gets to have this Silco in their hands. Messy and stained and with hair tussled and skin slick with sweat.]
[He really is the most gorgeous thorn in his side. He hates him for it, in a way. The pain he has caused, time and time again...]
[Well, he can punish him in so many ways. Just like this. Vergilius shifts, only to kiss him. Its a little desperate, one hand threading through the man's hair to cup over the nape of his neck.]
...It's been too long.
[He can't help but murmur. It really has. From the van to nights without a single thing to a knife in his side. And then back here.]
[He wants to bask in it a little while longer, even as his wound aches. To remind him.]
[He really should listen to himself.]
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Maybe they understood each other a little better. Hard won from fire and pain and steel. Maybe they had more answers, but at the very least, they had an agreement, didn't they? Limits and guardrails, things that they wouldn't do. His throat still aches, a touch, breathing hard scrapes sensitive skin, but he still breathes against his lips. Enjoys it. He feels that warm, pleasant haze take over. He doesn't even mind the mess between them, still warm from their bodies pressed together.
He darts a hand up, to brush against the scar on his face. ]
I think you must have done something to me. [ He says, a curl of his lips. ] I've never counted the days since before. You're just lucky I've been patient.
[ As if he would jump him in public, but oh, he had been sorely tempted. It had been far too long. ]
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[He repeats, almost a little incredulous. As if he had the power for such things. As if anyone would look at this and want more. It wasn't as if anyone was eager for it. (And if they were, he would always turn them down. He was the best at self-sabotage, for his own good.)]
[Vergilius's eyelids flutter at the touch to his face. He leans into it. He craves it. Silco always gives it to him. He might be smarting from his wound, but a touch like this could melt the world away.]
Maybe next time, not so lucky. Mm. Would you mind? [And something a little mischievious in his usually gloomy eyes, twinkling in the red light. He bends down to press a kiss to the sharp bend of the man's nose.] I should have dragged you into an alleyway.
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He breathes out, a soft half-chuckle. Something dark and a little bit pleased. ]
Maybe you should...
[ His fingers trail along the line of his jaw, to his ears, to brush at the fine hairs at the back of his neck. ]
We could sneak away... Would anyone even miss us? For just a little while.
[ He wasn't exactly making waves against the kaiju, and besides. He'd need his bodyguard with him, if he went off on his own. Right.
He tipped his head, to brush his lips against his jaw, and to breathe into his ear. ] Next time, maybe you should do it. Keep me occupied.
[ Keep him from getting any ideas... ]
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[They could sneak away. They could try to kill each other. They could spend a date together.]
[The sky is the limit.]
Keep you occupied...are you adding to my responsibilities? Maybe I should charge you more.
[A light nibble to rhe man's ear, as a reply.]
But maybe I should make it a surprise. One day I will come and you will be so unprepared. I'll whisk you away. You won't know what's coming.
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He'd played with it, tried to tease it out, along with the monster. Tried to pull that line out, to see where it was, where Vergilius would find the end of his rope and decide to just let go. Toss him away like every other time. It had to, the alternative was...
He teases him. Silco shivers, letting him pull him close.
How foolish of him. His fingers scrape against his back, teasing in turn. ]
Well, we would have to negotiate that contract, if you wanted to charge more...
[ He murmured, low. A tease in turn.
He sighed, his teeth at his ear does something odd. A nauseating little flip, like he skipped a beat. His fingers tighten. ]
A surprise? [ He asks. He laughs softly. A little teasing. ] I suppose it's fair play...
[ He'd jumped him twice now, after all. Caught him by surprise. ]
If you manage to catch me unprepared... [ A nip at his jawline, chipped teeth there leaving the slightest of indents. ] Then I'll let you have your way with me.
[ As if he wouldn't anyway. ] Whatever you want. A boon, perhaps.
[ A challenge, a game. What was Silco, without his games? ]