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Vergilius ([personal profile] immortalpoet) wrote2024-03-07 12:18 am

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NAME Vergilius
CIVILIAN_NAME Red Gaze
TEAM Brimstone
HOUSING_NUMBER 11
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-05-23 04:37 am (UTC)(link)
Without a doubt in my mind.

[ sincerely, too. he's kind to her. he's gentle and careful, considerate and ever-watchful -- if he could do that... he could raise a flowerbed. ]

Just treat them the way you do me and you'll see them unfurl their petals as easily as you unfurl mine.

[ in several meanings. ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-05-23 09:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ the air weighs slightly, in a different way than the warmth that might be there when his hands are on her; malkuth notes the change with his slow words and turns her head slightly to catch his gaze. ]

Of course, Vergilius. [ she's talked enough about herself, she's been patient for him. ] I'm listening.
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-05-23 09:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[ a garden of his own. her head rests back as she listens, the rumble of his voice against her back low and sorrowed in his reluctance. what good is he in taking care of something like that, when he couldn't even protect the one he had.

their lives are different in that way. this might be as unbridgeable as the many deaths kaito experiences every second, as the memories march has lost and can't recover. malkuth won't fool herself nor anyone else into thinking she could have a grain of understanding where she has none at all. a privileged life, protected then and after she'd left it, and continued to be sheltered until her final one... now, how she can tend her own gardens and wish to see them grow well. ]


... You know I can't give you an answer you'll be wholly satisfied with, and I know that too, so I won't. If you knew something was going to happen that day, would you have stayed? Do you think you could have changed something then? And if you couldn't, if it played out just the same, would it make you feel any better now about what happened to your garden having been there instead of away?

[ they're quiet questions, ones he can answer if he'd like, but the final one's is something she already knows.

no, it wouldn't make him feel better. maybe it would even make him feel worse. she takes one of his hands to play with, drawing lines over the scars. ]


I haven't lost anything like that. I know people who have. I hope I never do. But you did, and so you'll make sure it doesn't happen again. It shouldn't have in the first place -- that's something that can be said about anything -- but what's wrong with having faith in you, in yourself, that you'll do better the next?
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-05-24 04:05 am (UTC)(link)
[ hmmm. it's a fair question, after all she's been through. she looks down at his hand, quiet as she turns it over in her mind, stomach turning over at the gentle affection vergilius offers her. it's always so cute the way he shows it; it's more of a distraction now, but she thinks

it's because he'd like to be close, the way a wounded animal might be, and trusts her to be someone he can do that with. it's nice. it's good. he should have others, too. for now, malkuth presses his hand to her cheek. ]


... It doesn't feel good to be right about disappointment, Vergilius. No one likes to hear "See? I told you so" even from themselves.

I decided a long, long time ago that I wouldn't see things in black and white the way everyone else around me did. That I would search for color, however faint or hidden it was, in every moment, in every part of scenery, in every person, and I still do that now. Because I'd rather see than assume, because I'd rather risk being hurt than missing out on happiness.

[ sure. it hasn't been good. most of the time, it's been bad. historically so.

... but if she hadn't continued to look for a brighter tomorrow, if she hadn't had faith things could be different, then she wouldn't be here now. in many ways. ]


Does that make sense?
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-05-26 01:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[ it's not his job to do anything, her heart aches to hear him say so, but she isn't sure how to say it without hurting him too. if it's what's helping him along... if it's what he can use to find his own happiness, even if she's simply an excuse or crutch for now, then she can accept that.

not forever, but for now. the kiss against her cheek is sweet, the hand holding hers large and warm, and malkuth presses her lips tight to keep the resigned sigh inside; she shakes her head and pecks his lips. ]


I know you will. So if you don't believe yourself, at least believe me. You can do that much, can't you?

[ soft and sweet, coaxing his belief. there's no harm in trying. it's something she's always held and will always hold onto, others be damned. ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-05-26 05:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[ malkuth giggles, leaning into his hand. as long as he can do that much... it's fine. other bridges can be crossed as they come. ]

The only tension I feel around you is anticipation. Care to add kisses to the mix?

[ be unprofessional. ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-06-07 12:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ each one remains like a brand, the deliberateness warming her fiercely as she watches him descend, heart and lungs stuttering as she hums her approval. cheeks beyond rosy, lips parted a bit when she wets them eagerly. ]

I said you could be unprofessional with me anytime, [ she replies breathlessly, her free hand playing with his shirt, ] you-- shouldn't wait for my say-so.

[ it's sweet that he does. malkuth does like it. does adore being asked and cared for like that, considered -- but he's allowed to do what he wants, too. it's

it's pretty hot, as a crude samurai she knows might put it, to be waited on. she doesn't hate it. it gives her something to tease with, caught wrist tilting to let her fingertips brush at his bangs. ]


Unless... you like that?
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-06-11 03:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[ that



could be an abuse of power if she suddenly wasn't craving it so much. the rough of brick against her (back or front doesn't matter), his gravel voice in her ear, the careful way he'd hold her and move in her despite the way she'd like him to be slightly more lovingly cruel--

he shivers, she shudders a sigh. maybe she would like his hands elsewhere, his large fingers inside her. or even pressing hard against her thighs, threatening to bruise and never leaving a mark. ]


Y... Yes. If that's alright with you.

[ it might-- it would be fun, if dangerous in a way. exciting. malkuth's eyes light up and her cheeks deepen in their color, wondering what she could ask-- command. ]
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[personal profile] ignoreher 2024-06-15 03:20 am (UTC)(link)
You're not that old, [ a little tease, shifting her legs against him as she

stares and thinks, wondering where to start. ]
I'd like you to...

[ ... mmm. a sparkle in her eye as she lifts her free hand to the back of her neck and plays with the clasp there. it's just a small loop around a button, holding up this top piece of the dress.

easy enough to undo, the fabric around her neck loosening. just loosening though. she's careful not to let it fall too far, just enough to show the skin that'd been hidden there as her hand presses the rest to her chest, head tilting to the side to draw his gaze to the curve of her neck, her shoulder. ]


Here. Will you... I mean, I want you to kiss me here. I know you'll get there eventually, but I'm impatient when it comes to you.