[ elijah couldn't live either. it's partly for her, and partly for herself. malkuth doesn't think that line could blur... but only because she's being so careful about it too. it's only a slip away, using her name, her history as a cover. ]
If you'd asked me a month, maybe two ago how I felt about it, I would've said I hadn't thought a single thing about any of that. The only thing that was on my mind was making sure I actually died this time. [ her atonement, or what she felt would be appropriate, when really... ] But now I think that's just a form of running away. It's more painful to live with what you've done than to shrug it off like that.
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[ elijah couldn't live either. it's partly for her, and partly for herself. malkuth doesn't think that line could blur... but only because she's being so careful about it too. it's only a slip away, using her name, her history as a cover. ]
If you'd asked me a month, maybe two ago how I felt about it, I would've said I hadn't thought a single thing about any of that. The only thing that was on my mind was making sure I actually died this time. [ her atonement, or what she felt would be appropriate, when really... ] But now I think that's just a form of running away. It's more painful to live with what you've done than to shrug it off like that.