[ it's not easy to answer. it should be, but her thoughts swirl with the liquid in her glass. ]
I know I should. [ she has things she needs to do. things to see through. people she misses so much, the facsimiles here doing nothing to stem her loneliness.
no, they're very the same as she ever knew. but it's hard, it's painful, and she tips the rest of her first beer back to get started on the second. ] If I was given the choice, I know I'd go. Because that's what's right, it's what I should do, there's things I need to see the end of...
[ ... ]
But I think... I would regret it either way. If I did, if I didn't. I'd feel guilty, or I'd resent myself. I'd like to do everything I can, completely satisfy myself, before that chance or choice ever arrives -- if it does.
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[ it's not easy to answer. it should be, but her thoughts swirl with the liquid in her glass. ]
I know I should. [ she has things she needs to do. things to see through. people she misses so much, the facsimiles here doing nothing to stem her loneliness.
no, they're very the same as she ever knew. but it's hard, it's painful, and she tips the rest of her first beer back to get started on the second. ] If I was given the choice, I know I'd go. Because that's what's right, it's what I should do, there's things I need to see the end of...
[ ... ]
But I think... I would regret it either way. If I did, if I didn't. I'd feel guilty, or I'd resent myself. I'd like to do everything I can, completely satisfy myself, before that chance or choice ever arrives -- if it does.